Wednesday, March 4, 2009

to much to ask...

I bruised my face tonight...

why am i so stupid - it took away some of the anger - now i can see straight
why cant i be like a normal person and crawl into a corner and cry... instead it comes in stages - and stops - not coming when i want it to ....

I hit myself until i bruised - instead of tears - i feel shame - what is wrong with me?

God why can't I do anything the normal way - I want to escape this but every-time i start to get out - i crawl back into it because it is what i know

- screw what I know - i want what i don't know .... is that so much to ask for?

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