Christmas was awesome ! in fact it was the first Christmas I have neather walked on aggshells for nor had to be fake to apease thoughs around me. It was a different Christmas but with famliy non the less.
It also however was an oppertunity to open up a part of me that I thought never again would I open. Inside i was content (or thought I was ) with the hell that had reaged up inside of me. In a conversation - this cane to light and after realuizing - I mey not be alone this time - I am baganing to take done the wall I have put up - In the past i thought I could handle it myself - now I know I can't.
This is not an issue - I am able to sweep away - I need to talk I need to write - and not be petrifide of asking for help
I have meny scars that will never go away I am learning that I have to move past them to heal not in them (and in a sick way) the confert that they bring.
This is the road now that must be travled - it's going to be hard and painful - i look around me and in my darkness there are shadows I try to run But to my serprize they are not there to hurt me - but to help me on this road that must be travled...
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It is a hard thing to admit, but I am glad you are going to walk down that road and heal. We are here for you always. Love you
:) I'm glad that this time I will have friends to turn me around when I want to turn tail and run..
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