This is not only a really good song in a extremely well known musical ... it is also a really interesting question. One that I have been asking myself a lot lately ... " who am I?" - as a person , as a friend - and most importantly as a "child of God...?"
I was laying in my bed - and all I could think was " I honestly don't know who I am... and it really scared me. It was then that I realized that I have been everything "everyone else wants me to be" - F or year's growing up I agreeed with what people said to make them happy becoming who they wanted - beliving without questioning - agreed so much that I began to not want to figure out who I was as a person - as long as the people around me were happy - life was good... or so I thought
The problem that now resides is that I am lost - lost in a dark corador - a dark place -- with light to far away to see -with no idea what to do where to go - how to get there .. I am not saying that I am so screwed up I am unable to fuction - it is just I want with all of my being to be a new person - without fears - insecuties and unknows - I long to be secure and not scared of what I do not know - and the overwelming fear of failing - failing , me and thouse around me--- As well as God - I know he has a perpose for me - i am His child - but am I really making any headway ...?
I know i am loved by people and God - I just want so badly to figure out who I am - to final put this question to rest and all their fears behind me ....
It hurts so badly - to jump when their is a good possiblity that might just drowned - hoping with everything that in the end - you will come up allright ...
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The question must be asked: Are you measuring your identify, worth and if you are making headway by world standards or God's (The Scriptures)?
true enough my goal is the latter of the 2
Just remember that when you get thinking like this. ;O)
will do
Dawn I'm a little surprised that you are just coming to this spot in your life and questioning of self and placement and belonging in the world, etc. I thought you would have wrestled with this concept sooner, but you were stuck in the college mindset for WAY too long! Maybe that's part of it. Either way, I am glad that you are facing the issue now and I will pray that you come out on the other side strengthened and sure of who you want to be in Christ. It is so easy to compare ourselves to others and want to be like some others we look up to, but that cannot happen if God didn't make you that way, you know. It IS a question of identity. Of self worth. It is a question that can only be satisfied by THE answer which comes form God himself. Look to Him and trust Him who He made you to be and who He is making you into. He meets us where we are at and brings us along, patiently guiding us to paths we could not dare to dream! We simply need to trust and obey. I know it's easier said than done, but I'll pray that you find what you need and have the answers you are looking for. Love you
thanks friend -- yes I was in the college mind set for way to long - I did not start to realize that until that was no longer there to fall and hide into ..
So many people look at me and see such awesome things - the way God is forming me - yet I do not see what they see and it frustrates me ... I mean if they see it, I must be changing - a little here and a little there -yet I am unable to see it .... in myself - it is like the water clear to them but still murky to me ....
Don't hold onto that. Most people are the same way. Others can see things in you and me which we cannot see in ourselves. It's just happens that way sometimes. No biggie. The important thing is to reflect on what they say they see changing and discover for yourself whether or not it is in fact true. If it is great! If it is not, they may have misread into you and you can correct them. If you don't know, ask God. He's got some amazing insight! ;)
Sorry, that last one was from me. :P
Carmen (under my name) is right...
lol
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