A scream for the internet to see .....

* ok so this is more of a rant... so i am sorry for it .. in a way *

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ok that is all i can do at the moment- scream into my laptop screen.

I want to explode, today is a amazingly beautiful day,perfect for a wedding and I am super excited for that don't get me wrong that is not why i am virtually screaming for the internet to see. Not at all. The reason is a result of what happend yesterday- the Gong show that snowballed into disaster....

So my friend picked me up last night so I could come to this wedding today, I had fund raiser tickets with me that my other friends needed this weekend- (or so i thought) before i left stonewall i called her there was no answer... so i told her to call me back (though she was busy with maid of honor stuff) didn't even bother to try her boyfriend ... like i always do.... don't know why .... So me and friend number 1 (in the story) went to dinner - we get home around 11:30 -- I realized then that both the maid of honor and the best man (friend and boyfriend) had been waiting for the tickets and now it is to late to bring them in ......So they are pissed ....I'm confused....and then the best man and friend start to fight about it .........so so stupid ..... and because they live together (they continued this morning)

So you see now why i screamed .... it is not my fault but in a way I feel like it is because it is FOR me..... the money will get in today i know that.....

I just hope and pray that this pissing contest can be put aside for the bride and groom's sake.... they don't deserve to have this ruin their day .........

I am still here

so I'm not dead yet....

Life for the past month has been interesting.. between learning my new job and helping mom on the weekends (she has been really sick) ...life has been anything but dull.

the kitchen is full of drama as always.. most the time it is just safer to sit back and enjoy the show - all the while being mindful of flying potatoes. Sadly though my job in the kitchen ends in a few weeks and i go on to learning the stuff i will be doing this summer .. all and all it should be a great time.

I other more frustrating news - I got word about a week ago that my UK visa was declined so now i am in the process of appealing it and hope it works other wise I will have to go for 6 months come home for 3 weeks and go back for 5 months .... so if you feel like praying please please do !

Anyway there is a lineup for the net I must be off !

God Speed!