It's time for change. Yes I have been on LJ since high school this is true. Although I haven't touched it in 5 or 6 months. With that said as I was looking back on many of those posts I realixed I was angry - with myself my family and others and it sucked ! (not to say I don't get angry anymore) but it is something I want to stop doing.
The year 2007 has been anything but happy or easy thus far. What I thought was a 'wonderful family' fill apart while I was away at school, leaving just mom and I in the house without a third party. That has been interesting to say the least. I have also been unable to find work this summer. at first this was frustrating but now as the summer is passing by I'm ok with it. ( not that being unemployed is a good thing) it just has allowed me to see things differently then I did in the past. I am trusting that the LORD will get me through for this coming year .. and in my head and my heart I know He will.
As for mom she still yells, screams, and over reacts over the littlest things but unlike other years I refuse to be sucked in to it - making a fight out something that is so little and pathetic - it has taken 7 years but I see now that by not yelling back all she hears is herself and hopeful one day she will chill out and relax .. but who knows ....
With this I start to a new happier chapter of my life. I am sick of being mad and angry. I want to be happy again.. I want to be me again .
